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Monday, 29 June 2009

Ditched.

No one xanga's anymore. Everyone's falling in love with tumblr.Haha.

Wednesday, 24 June 2009

the pursuit of happiness and sadness.

As I watch people graduate this season, it makes me think of what next year is going to bring. I'm moving up, and getting closer to where they stand at this moment. As they all talk about where they'll all be attending in the fall, part of me is really wanting to stay in New Jersey now. I don't feel like i'd get the whole college experience if I stayed at home though. My mom now wants me to go to Caldwell College. Her godson goes there, and she saw the campus and thought it was astonishing. There are schools in almost every region of the united states that I plan on applying to. We'll see what God has in store for me though. His plans are far more better than mine.

Wednesday, 17 June 2009

Unsatisfied.

I have exactly one month to the date to lose 15 lbs. I seriously need to stick to my diet. If you see me eating any bad food, take it away, please! My cousin’s wedding is on July 17th, and my dad bought me a new dress. I’m scared to try it on, because he bought it a size small, I believe.
So, tomorrow is the last day of official day of classes. I have four more finals to go. Once I have friday’s finals done, I can chill. It’s so bad how much i’ve slacked this year. I think I can officially say I have senioritis. I don’t want to exaggerate to much, but I have no motivation to do anything whatsoever. The only class I do work in is History. It’s my favorite class. No matter how tired I am, I always find myself doing good in that class. My history teacher gave us our marking period grades, and i only got an 88, which I was very disappointed with. I wish I could redo my junior year.

Monday, 15 June 2009

Farewell.

You knew that our friendship was on the line. I gave you so many signs that things were wrong, but I guess you weren't catching on. I gave you chance after chance to do something, but you didn't. Maybe, we just aren't meant to be friends. I'm also getting really sick of your stories and excuses. I've prayed over and over for you, but I don't know what to do anymore.
So, junior year is SLOWLY coming to an end. It's so weird to think that i've almost completed three years of high school already. As badly as I struggled this year, I feel like i've learned the most during this year of high school. I guess you can say I "found" myself. I struggled in so many ways this year such as: emotionally, mentally, and academically. I feel like I lost a few friends, but those always come and go, right? Junior year, it was fun knowing you.

Wednesday, 10 June 2009

I've been wanting to make sleep my best friend lately, as lame as that sounds. This year has been the worst with sleep. The past few weeks, i've really been pushing myself to do good in certain classes, especially English. I've actually been doing good. I got a hundred on my last two tests, and a 94 on my last quiz. My English 5 page term paper for the year is due on Friday, which I only have one page done. But not getting enough sleep is really hurting me in some classes. Once i'm done eating lunch, I go straight to sleep. And then during 8th period History, I go to sleep too. I'm doing very well in that class, anyways. My best class throughout high school so far, is becoming my worst class, which is french. I got a 34 on my last test. She asked me what was wrong, and how this came about. I really had no idea what to say to her. She had found out that I dropped my AP French IV class next year, and she was very mad about that. Tomorrow is my physics final, and I actually think i'm ready for it. My friends said they'd help me if I needed it, but i'm actually pretty confident about it. I would just like for this year to be over. I've had it, and i'm ready to be a senior.
On Monday, I had my audition for which piano class I should be in. My guidance counselor had found out that I played piano awhile back. She said it'd be dumb for her to put me into piano I. I'm only taking piano because it's a performing art, and I need a year of a performing art to graduate. The teacher i auditioned for put some sheet music in front of me that was three plages long, and just said to play it as it was. She also said if I could play it in two different keys, she'd be impressed, which ofcourse I did. I was going to play it in f sharp, but then I might have messed up, because I can never play anything in f sharp. When I was done, she said I did wonderful and marvelous. She ended up putting me into piano IV, which i'm very scared of. We'll see how everything goes.
p.s.- i'm craving some sleep badly.